Do you ever find yourself thinking about something from your past that you wish you could forget? Thankfully this doesn’t happen to me as often as it use to, but every now and then I’ll find myself reliving something in my head from years ago. Thinking I should have said this, or should have done that. I find myself getting in a dark mood and second guessing everything, and for what? There’s not a thing I can do about it now, and nothing is going to change it. So why in the world would I continue to dwell on it? I usually end up saying a short prayer and asking God to only allow thoughts that are pleasing to Him in my head. Then I’ll try to pray for someone else or sing a praise and worship song (in my head – don’t want to run anyone off by singing out loud!) and the thought will completely go away and my mood will lift.

I’ve always wondered why it is that God can forgive and forget, and I can forgive and forget what other people have done, so why can’t I forgive and forget what I’ve done? I think a huge step is forgiving myself for my past stupidity and selfishness. Which is hard and a continuing processing. Then I wonder if there’s not a reason why I’m not able to forget. I can’t remember where I heard this quote, if it’s from the Bible, or maybe someone who has a great understanding of having a relationship with God. But maybe God doesn’t let us forget because we need to remember what He delivered us from.  And when I look at it from that perspective I can Praise God for literally changing me and bringing me out of a life of sin, and giving me the desires of my heart. Of course I still sin, we’re human, everyone sins, but now I know about God’s grace and mercy, and it’s a much happier life!